Far Away From Home
3:44 AM
Many of us think of the day when we will finally be free from our parent`s rules and guidelines that we had to follow... Going to the university means new rules, new guidelines and more often your own rules. It is a bit scary if you think about it, but this is the time in your life when you learn the true meaning of independence and responsibility...
I live approximately 10,000 kilometers away from my parents. My family is in Kazakhstan, and I am studying in Canada... I`ve lived this far since 2007...
Sometimes I ask myself : "Why am i doing this to myself? "Living by myself in a country where I have no family is a strengthening experience, but often alienating and tremendously lonely. It's sometimes hard not to feel sorry for myself when my friends from around here mention that they're off to their parents' place for dinner. But, there are advantages in this life. You become extremely strong and capable. I found my apartment, school, part-time job by myself. And I also can install and fix some stuff in the house... :P
Of course, a new city is a new life. It's easy to reinvent yourself in a country where no one knows your history. I left home devastated - heartbroken, confused, without proper education & life - and somehow I've emerged on the other side of the world as a whole new person again. Not everything in my life is perfect, but I'm not stressed out nor depressed, eventhough, i do feel homesick from time to time...
I`m going home in August. Will spend 2-3 weeks messing around with my family and friends, and then I`ll be back here again. Although it will be sad to leave, I am sure I will be at ease stepping back into my apartment in Vancouver...
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